Author: The Integrated Man

Human Consciousness And Its Transformation

It seems that we are quite far away from really understanding and reaching an agreement on what consciousness is. There is also no evidence so far that consciousness is actually generated in the brain, a fascinating question. By acknowledging that language and our rational mind might actually not be able to grasp the total reality of consciousness, one possible definition though, among many others, pragmatical and empirical here, is to consider consciousness as a naturalContinue reading

A Part Of Me Wants All The Pussies, And It Makes Me Suffer

It was one of these warm summer nights that I had spent with a dear male friend of mine. I was coming back to my place by bike. The breeze was gently sliding on my legs and my face, it was so cozy. Yet, I felt dissatisfied. And oh boy, I can tell you that I know too well this very feeling. But how possible was it popping up again now? Indeed, I had spentContinue reading

A Beautiful And Painful Cold Approach Of An Attractive Woman

It was the end of a summer afternoon in a gorgeous sunny day. I was sitting on a bench in a park, it was crowded. Not so far away was a big group who was celebrating their friend’s birthday. I was looking at them, they were all from Middle East. I noticed that one of the girls was checking me out. She was quite far though, around 20 meters. But when she looked at meContinue reading

The Inner Power of Self Awareness

I am fascinated by consciousness. What is it? What’s its purpose? Is it generated in the brain, or not? I’ve also been fascinated by its exploration. Getting access to it in the corners of my mind and my body. Getting access and deepening consciousness is an embodied experience. And for me, it all started with self awareness. I use the word “awareness” here to refer to as our inner abilities to watch what is happeningContinue reading

The ManKind Project, Gold Standard of a Modern Men’s Community?

When I discovered that I was a “Nice Guy”, I felt the need to establish deeper relationships and get more validated by men than by women. I cut out several of my relationships with female friends and invested more of my energy in getting socially involved with male friends. I kind of knew it was not enough though, but it was the only option I had at that time. After several years, a bit by coincidence,Continue reading

Always Seek Discomfort, Just Beyond Your Edge

The industrial revolution drastically eased our lives in western countries recently. Most of us do not have to worry anymore about feelings of cold, heat, and even hunger. We live in super cozy houses with running water and amazing machines helping us out with our daily chores. And that’s absolute luxury, since the less time we spend to worry about satisfying our basic needs, the more we can invest in higher-level and meaningful endeavours. However,Continue reading

The Way of the Superior Man – Live as if your father were dead

If there would be a single book I had to recommend every man to read and contemplate over the years, I think it could be this one, by David Deida. It is a deep and truthful dive into spiritual masculine essence, broken down into small chapters. These chapters give you concrete entry points for implementing conscious changes in your reality and mindset as a man. Here is an excerpt of its last edition’s preface, justContinue reading

I Love Looking At Women’s Asses – Consciously

I remember very well that when I was in my twenties, I was used to look at women’s asses in the streets. And I didn’t like it. I thought it was really creepy. I thought it was disrespectful for women. I used to beat myself up each time I realized that it was happening. And oh boy, it was happening a lot, I can tell you. I had to rely a heavy will power toContinue reading

A New Unexpected Meeting With My Shadow

As an explorer, I am dedicated to navigate through all the corners of my psyche. It is self-healing. It is fascinating. I already wrote about self-discovery and integration of a childhood trauma. Among other tools, I rely on ayahuasca, a psychoactive brew from the Amazonian jungle, to unlock and get access to unconscious material buried deep inside my psyche. And during another ceremony with ayahuasca, I met a new part of my unconscious that was broughtContinue reading

I Met Two Fucking Warriors

My journey towards self-healing and self-realization, among other powerful tools I rely on, involves a deep exploration into the realm of ayahuasca. Ayahuasca is a psychoactive brew that has been used for hundreds of years as a traditional spiritual medicine in ceremonies among the indigenous peoples of the Amazon. I drink it in a very specific context and co-healing ceremonies. The container for these ceremonies has been established and refined by generations of people who haveContinue reading